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Here is a letter to myself One I sealed away only to see during dire needs I break the seam and I read away I ask myself in this letter Where have I gone? Where was that contagious smile I once wore? My happiness shouldnt be defined by one person I should be happy I am alive My heart beats the beats of life Yet I cry everyday I mourn my loss as if it were just yesterday Everyday Do I enjoy being this sad? This lonely? Why not go about your life as the other has? To forget what once was and to focus on what is yet to be Such simple concepts An easy philosophy Yet my heart cannot let go It reminds me everyday of what was Never willing to go bey

I close my eyes The memories begin to pour onto me The moment I heard your voice How my heart skipped a beat The first time I saw your face How your smile made me smile The moment you asked for my hand The fear, oh god how the fear consumed me When I decided to accept and take you The unfiltered joy I finally felt Those three words... I have no words The day you stood five feet from me How quickly that disappeared The first kiss The world stopped just for us The moment we became one All the tension that brewed finally has been released All these moments are flashing before my eyes I want to relive these I want what I had back But I opened my

I reach out to you Yet you turn away I know you can hear me cry Yet you chose to ignore me It is for the best Turn away from one another and pray it will be okay I cannot Ive invested so much We both did I looked into those eyes Strong and steadfast on your decision They looked into me Cold and angry I pleaded I cried I screamed But I knew what was in store I tried to keep my dignity intact Again I tried Ive been clutching at my heart for so long now Second time around and I thought I found the answer But now I find myself Looking at my phone waiting for that name to come across again Stay online to see if that cheerful ring happens again As

We have died for love Fought bloody wars for our maidens Some lives were taken by men Others taken by themselves In the modern age this is still true You watch as your fears come true You can only stand, helpless Not knowing the future To allow faith to take over Faith has failed many before What about me? Where has faith taken me? Ive asked to the heavens above Asked for signs Signals Memos Yet nothing has come my way I stand here watching you run away from me Far far away I am helpless I cannot control you, never could I still stand though For faith will carry me Sure faith has shown me no love in the past The love I once felt could make m

I close the laptop in silence. My head down with the tears raining down. I begin to remember, her smile ear to ear. Her smell and her touch. How lost we got into each other eyes. Those sweet, sweet kisses how I stole one at every moment I got. I get quickly get interrupted with a familiar feeling, an icy hand on the back of my neck, "Oh I'm sorry young one." I hear him smiling as he closes his hand onto my neck. His nails have grown from last time. His nails finally reach the front of my neck. "I don't need you now. Let me suffer alone first." I force out as I cry. He simply chuckles at my request, "Young one, you must understand....Ive been

I have cried for you With you And because of you We made such sweet music together Made a whole heart with our halves I understood you and you me It was a freak moment When you spoke to me So random yet perhaps led by destiny Millions and millions of people in this universe And you find me, at my weakest When I need not love nor compassion Yet you gave me so much more than that You gave me a life I could look forward to A life I was proud to call my own A shared life Something I thought was a fantasy Before I dreamed of choking on my own blood Letting my life slip away.....slowly and painfully I thought of soo many ways to hurt myself Then yo

I feel my heart hurt itself Everyday It cries to me, "You lied. We were suppose to be protected" I cannot face it Look at it in the eyes I broke a promise to myself For an opportunity that seemed so close For that moment of bliss I never questioned anything Everything was clear as day But just as it started with rainbows and butterflies It began with the tearing and pain Familiar pain, one that should be no problem Is it my fault? Do I ask to die? Do I need a reason? Who should be blamed? If anyone? Ive fantasized of sliding that soul-less Silver monster across myself Ive imagined how at peace I could be How easy to turn my flesh into a tally

You have put your heart in my hands Broken and weighty I put my everything into it To mend it, bring it back to its former glory Throughout my time Ive grown to love it To love you Ive felt the compassion it once felt for others How heavy it got when others who were suppose to Love you, played with it Ive proven myself time and again Bared my soul to you Given you at my weakest Shown you what I can become Yet You shove my love aside Ask me to suppress my love Dont speak of it Pretend to be something Im not I listen to my heart How it held your voice Start to disappear My mind would make your words dance That the screen was nothing But that is

My Muse Suffers so Her smile subsides Her eyes grow cold I sit here Pen and pad in hand Waiting for My Muse I try to Understand Try to empathize To sympathize Nothing I do seems to work My Muse tells me "Give me time" "Your smile will return, I promise" My heart she hurts Knowing that My Muse Suffers so Deeply Her voice calls out to me Spraying these hurtful and negative thoughts To the point Where My Demon spreads his wings Digging his dirty black nails into my soul Laughing at the pain He causes My Muse I shall wait for you until the end of time My Muse bring me your smile Your warmth Your Love

Baby girl twist away I cant breath When you smile my way Baby girl you make my heart smile I was meant to be in your life Baby girl you are the one Your scent intoxicates me Baby girl..... No words can express what I feel Baby girl Ill spend an eternity searching For those words For you to know what I feel for you Baby girl you are my sun My universe, my everything